“Life is about choice, and from our choices our lives unfold”. That’s one of the profound teachings I received from the energies of the universe, when I asked a very deep and simple question, and actually got an answer. What makes it any more appropriate to take the life of the plant than it does to take the life of the animal? It’s all life, it’s all alive, we really all are all one connected energy, we really are all one spirit. How can I take anyone’s life, plant or animal?
I was in a conundrum. In some ways, it began when I became vegan seven years before that question arose. That’s when my awareness and connection began to really wake up. I gave up the office work life and went into a spiritual community, then moved to another spiritual community, moved back into the world while still following spirit, in my own mostly solitary and often hermitic ways. Then I found love.
It was springtime. My love and I lived far apart, so we each visited the other once a week. He was vegan for longer than I was , he ate lots of raw foods, he was a professional classical musician- my favorite music, he had a thriving organic garden, and he appreciated cannabis. I was in love with him, and I was also in love with his garden. I had not had much time around gardens in my life, so this was quite a treat for me.
One week I saw these beautiful, big yellow flowers. The next week those flowers had shriveled and there were these pregnant-looking green bulbs growing from the shriveled ends of the flowers. The next week i recognized zucchini. I was watching life live and grow, and I was connecting on some very deep levels. I was feeling friendship with those plant critters, recognizing the life they were living, and appreciating their beauty and energy.
And then my sweet love came out to the garden with a bowl and knife and lovingly asked if I would like to pick our dinner, and went back inside. So here was my conundrum. I was making friends with all these plants, recognizing kinship, and he wanted me to chop off their heads! That’s when the question that had been forming in me for a very long time came to the fore. “What makes it any more appropriate to take the life of the plant than it does to take the life of the animal?” It’s all life, we are all one spirit. I simply could not go forward until I knew, so I decided to simply sit in that garden and meditate until I had an answer. It wasn’t a demand, I was simply unable to go forward.
Before I had even gotten all the way down to the ground, a beautiful blue light surrounded those plants. I felt a great peace and deep awe, and teachings began to stream through. Life is about choice, they said, and from our choices our lives unfold. We want you to eat us, they said. It’s not a taking, it’s a sharing. When you eat us, we get to see the world from your point of view, and you get to share our energy. We all win. What happens if you don’t eat us? We fall to the ground, decay, re-fertilize the earth, and try again to be food, because that is why we are here. It is different than creatures who move around and have families. Nourishment is our gift to you. They also said to make the loving choice, whatever the situation.
They shared a gratitude for my use and advocacy of organic foods, and for being vegan, for honoring the earth and all life on it, and many more things than my brain could hold even when it was occurring. They did also say that not every animal on earth is unwilling to be used for food, but there is not one anywhere willing to be abused.
There were many more teachings and sharings that came through than I can remember. I know these wisdom teachings were not coming from my little self, because I was the one with the great conundrum. I treasure that experience to this day.
I have no idea how long that experience lasted, but when it was winding down, I felt inspired to break off a piece of a leaf, I believe it was kale, and chew it. It was the truest communion I ever experienced.